Ahhh.. the trials of the fog that is in my head. My brain farted for a few days.. forgive.
One day I will have a system ... I don't know when.. and I don't know how.. but I will.
anyway.. Today was a great day for me.. woke up with a smile on my face and hope in my heart. I have been giddy all day long.
One may ask if I had been laid. No... sadly that isn't so. But the reason for my happiness? My life.
Simple as that.. My life is why I am happy. In today's world, people are constantly thinking of the stresses of their lives. the economy, the future. But I woke up knowing what I had.. now, today.. at this moment in time. And everything put a smile on my face.
you know what I have? I have everything my heart ever wanted.. and the desire and aspirations to keep my dreams alive.. to keep going for them no matter what is thrown in my path. As the saying goes "what doesn't kill me, only make me stronger".. and that is 100% true.
I may be a pregnant single mom.. no partner to help... but dang it.. my kids love me and they are taken care of.. and most importantly.. THEY ARE HAPPY! I'm doing my job. Don't get that messed up with those who would financially spoil their children. I spoil them with love, time, commitment to their likes, their needs. And I can't forget what a wondrous feeling it is to have a baby kicking away in my belly. The life that will be brought into this world for everyone to see... and learning with her.. all her firsts.
I have so much more happiness and joy around me than I let myself see. As I said in another post.. it's always easier to see the negative... we are taught it from birth.. we have to teach ourselves to look at the positives... no one else will do that for us. We are responsible for ourselves; for our happiness.